Your Inner Gender is Male

You are rational, matter of fact, and quite dominant. You like to get things done, without any emotional messiness. You truly don't understand most women. And you definitely feel more comfortable around men. No doubt about it. You're a guy - at least on the inside.

What's Your Inner Gender?

You Are a Ham Sandwich

You are quiet, understated, and a great comfort to all of your friends. Over time, you have proven yourself as loyal and steadfast. And you are by no means boring. You do well in any situation - from fancy to laid back. Your best friend: The Turkey Sandwich Your mortal enemy: The Grilled Cheese Sandwich

What Kind of Sandwich Are You?

You Are Destined to Struggle With Your Weight

Like most people, you find it a little difficult to stay at at weight you're comfortable with. If you change a few habits and make food less important, you may find the struggle hardly exists anymore.

Are You Destined To Be Overweight?

Your Cell Phone Etiquette is 57% Bad, 43% Good

Your cell phone manners are simply okay. Sometimes you can be very considerate. But when you are in the middle of an important conversation, all rules go out the window!

How's Your Cell Phone Etiquette?

There's a 32% Chance You've Been Abducted By Aliens

Even though you have a few alien abduction signs, you're almost certainly in the clear. However, if aliens ever do come to your neck of the woods... they'll probably be coming for you!

What Are the Chances that You've Been Abducted by Aliens?

Just played bball with my beloved ky today! Hahahaha. I was like a complete freak this morning as I lugged around a shoebag in hoodie and jeans while the office workers around me rushed around in their formal wear and mini handbags/laptop bags. Training was a huge bore today, very much like a six hour lecture on computer studies. Some of us fell asleep but the guy didnt seem to care very much hahah.

The NTU tea reception yesterday was a tad bit of a time waster. The food wasn't much, and that was the main thin I went for. A very silly thing happened to yiyun and I during the school tour. At first, we were on bus 1 and being the immensily lazy people we are, we kept kvetching about having to get down the bus to take a look around at certain points. All we wanted to do was get over and done with the whole ordeal. So at one stop, bus 2 seemed to be going faster, thus we decided to hop onto to that bus. And well, there was a BIG reason why they seperated us into two different buses, one which we completely missed. Hahah. Hence, we caused two girls to stand during the journey to the next stop as we had taken their seats. COMPLETELY embarrassed, we hopped back onto bus 1 when we met at the next point. >.<

Shopped with alex today again. Orchard was such a disappointment. We scoured through topshop, forever 21, mango, zara and pull and bear; there was absolutely NOTHING to buy, so we decided to go off to vivo instead since she has work there later anyway. At the train station we met Tasneem and turns out, she knows alex too. Hahah., I wonder who in the world does NOT know alex. Hmmm.

Vivo turned out to be much more fruitful. I bought two dresses from river island and alex bought one, a very sexy one at that. HAHHA. Ate long john's onthe steps facing the sentosa entrance. Then alex had to go to work, but she really wanted to get the adidas guys jacket so I offered to help her go get it and deliver it over. Nice old me. Back I went up the red line to orchard, scooted over to paragon and bought the jacket and went to marche to hand it to her. We couldn't buy from vivo as the coupon I had was only valid at franchise stores. The guy was like "people always don't read the back ah." >.< Oh well. Happy happy shopping day today is. Sad Sad day for my bank account though. GAH.

Bollywood fever at MEritus Mandarin last night! Hahah. I attended Dickson's company dinner & dance since prl kids is under that company and it was pretty fun. The theme was bollywood but I didn't have a costume to wear, so I just wore my usual clothes which look a tad oriental.

Most of the staff are really quite young and being in sales, they tend to be more vibrant so it was a really good time. The food was pretty good too, which IS the main reason for my prescence there. There were like two huge slabs of meat from which the chef would cut the steaks from, and it was so nice that serp and I kept going up for more helpings. Lance and Felicia kept making drink up more beer as for some inane reasone they were under the impression was I was a superb drinker. Sorry to fail you guys! The entertainment was pretty interesting, apart from the retarded banghra-robics. However, I daresay that it was interesting to watch others make a fool of themselvees! Photos are up under dicksond&d.

I got transferred to raffles place which is an undecidedly bad thing. My transportion expenditure is going to shoot up the roof thanks to my daily rides on the train:((((. Well, at least I would be in the same area as ky so I could pop by tcc for free drinks! Hhahaha.

Thank god my mum asked my dad to check the mail today, if not I would never have received the ntu business acceptance letter and be left wondering whether they had lost my application. It's raining really badly now, luckily we cancelled our bball game. Hmm, hope these are all good signs for a better day at work tmr.

I wish work was always solitaire, sitting outside the building defrosting in the blazing sun while bundled up in my jacket. I would be drinking my hot milo while fiah smokes her marbolo lights. The rest would then come out and join us with their canned drinks and we would then proceed to the lounge for a little tv time. Like hell they would pay us 7.50 to do that.

Retail therapy for the worried, jobhating soul! I bought an ultramarine satin blouse thing from zara. Work was okay today since it is the LAST DAY OF TRAINING, something I'm not too keen about. Training was like going back to school again. Going through things you have not a clue about, half dozing off while the person speaks and playing games when the person in charge is not looking. Tmr would be the official start of work and I'm not looking forward to momments of flustering, getting yelled at and feeling lost and dazed:(((.

I just saw the short interview segment of Auntie Cynthia on Discovery Travel & living about her houses and hotels in Sri Lanka and Nepal. It's kind of weird to see some one you know on the telly, really it is. Ug, I can't believe I have to study for my new job and I absolutely hate technical, mechanical things:(((.

Watched fracture today! It was a really really good movie. Intelligent, psychological games, the battle between Ryan Gosling and Anthony Hopkins was just brilliant! Arrogance leading to complacency and thus exploitation of weakness. It did remind me a little bit of Silence of the Lambs though.

After dinner at C Jade express, we went home and guess what? I was locked out! I brought out another bag and forgot to transfer my keys over and it had to be the day where my whole family was out. Dad was over at alvin's, my bro and mum are usually only back at eleven odd. So I had to go through a checkliust of people I could call out to accompany me. Lik who lives pretty near me is stuck in NS or I would go crash his house. Luckily, alex was out so i met her over at city hall and we had starbucks frappes while sitting at the fountain outside the Raffles tower.

Ugh monday blues are already setting in.

I Like Your Hair - Scotty Vanity

PSHYEAH

I hated the first day of work. It was like being the new girl all over again. At least the girl I sat necxt to was kind of cool, though very independent(leaving me a little stranded at times). The training reminds me of those hideos days where I had two lectures in a row. I cant absorb or understand anything the person says, which would prove highly detrimental to me when I actually begin work. Sigh, three more months to go.

NOVELLE VAGUE IN SINGAPORE AT ZOUK
Anyone interested(((:

I just came back from watching the phantom of the opera. Loved it loved it loved it.
Ten times, no one MILLION times better than man of letters.

So the money minded devil in me won the battle, and off I am to a drab and technical job I have a feeling I would hate. Just htink of the money dear girl, think of the greens. Let's say university orientation camps clash with my work, I will end up with no friends at all ( as Audrey had kindly informed that it is during these camps do you make friends). Ah well, what do I not know of the life of a reclusive loner.

Shopping today was fruitful! Bought a black and hotpink adidas men's jacket. The guy kept insisting for me to take XS but I wanted to take S. The band at the end of the jacket was a bit too fitting for XS. Yes, I am larger than some males in Singapore. Big shocker there. I was reading I-D mag in kino and saw this really cool pastel striped adidas jacket. Immediately I began regretting my new purchase, but after seeing it in the pacific plaza store, I realized it wasn't so nice as the material was abit like a towel. I do like their new cartoony collection though. It was so adorable, just like the ad they had in nylon. Despite dissing the decline in quality of french connection, I bought this really nice royal blue jumper dress from them.

Yes mummy dear, I will buy you your Agnes B. tshirt when I get my first pay and hopefully I would have excess to get myself the YSL tshirt that I suddenly love alot.

I am sooo fucking tired. Work ended at one last night, or should I say this morning. Plus, I had a job interview( of which TWO job agencies called me for) early in the morning at ten. Which means I have to get up at eight so that my brain is functioning by the time I get there, and only people who are not schooling or are farmers OR live in perth get up at such an ungodly hour!

Well, at least working alst night was pretty fun. All I had to do was stand around, move the clothes and listen to people bullshit. After work, Irene wanted to grab a bite so we went down to macs. The queue was held up by this white guy who was asking for paper bags as he was collecting them. While eating, this drunk girl with an ENORMOUS beer belly came in. And I do mean enormous, janice and I thought she was pregnant! After getting her drink or whatever, she began to flirt with these two caucasian men and their conversation was the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard. " Hi, I'm February." "Oh I'm July. (fake giggles) You shoukd come join me. Singing rocks!" I presume the girl just came from the ktv bar next door. Honestly, I felt my braincells die as I listened to them(no I did not eavesdrop, drunk people tend to speak quite loudly), do that flirty banter. The weirdest things you meet at night.

I do think my brain became a little befuddled from the influence of the idiocratic conversation and lack of sleep. I totally lost my way around raffles place and went into the wrong building. I was supposed to go to the building next to OCBC, but in my fervent search, I kept thinking OCBC OCBC, so I entered fucking OCBC and went up the elevator to the twelfth floor only o realize I was in the wrong building! I bet the security guards must be thinking how strange that I walk in and out of the building in less than five minutes.

Right, so another job agency just called me and the job sounds much more fun than Singtel's but the pay is much lower too. What to do what to do.

When four people asked you if you have gained weight, you KNOW its time to shed some pounds.

You Are a Pinky

You are fiercely independent, and possibly downright weird. A great communicator, you can get along with almost anyone. You are kind and sympathetic. You support all your friends - and love them for who they are. You get along well with: The Ring Finger Stay away from: The Thumb

What Finger Are You?

You Are Boyish Sexy

You're the kind of girl who gets along with all the boys Whether it's holding your own in a game of touch football... Or kicking some major butt while playing Xbox. You hang with the guys easily, while still keeping your girly sexiness.

What Kind of Sexy Girl Are You?

You Are 71% Manic

You're so energetic, it's almost like you have a superpower. If you can dream it, you can do it. And without stopping for sleep. Just make sure you harness your energy for good - not evil!

Are You Manic?

You Are Pretty Happy Being Single

You have a full, fun life. And you definitely don't need love to be content. Of course, being single can get you down a little. Especially when you've been single for a while. But you know how to be patient and wait for the right person. You're life is too good to settle for anything!

Are You Happy Being Single?

You Are 68% Tortured Genius

You are smart. Brilliant in fact. And while it's a blessing, it's also a curse. Your head is filled with everything - grand ideas, insufferable worries, and a good deal of angst.

Are You a Tortured Genius?

How i wish this was true

Job hunting can be such a bitch at times. I want a job, yet I am getting reluctant to work. I guess I need to overcome this lazy inertia, then I would be able to adapt back into working life again. As I waited for aud at raffles place, watching those office workers scurrying back after lunch hour, it really struck me that this is not the kind of life I would like to lead in the future. It's too routine and the corporate world is just too fake for me too bear.

I have decided the top few places to chill out are the starbucks at liang court, holland v and liat towers. The white room at club street is very chic and so is that ice cream shop at haji lane. I guess big conglomerate malls are not too much of my taste. I would be more content ensconced in a sofa with a book, at a cafe tucked away in the alleys or suburban malls. Tazo chai frappe does not agree with me:(((

Every time I go out with my friends, it seems like a contest to be the latest. Today, ky won it hands down, I was so distressed by her tardiness that I got off on the wrong train station hahah. Ate at suki sushi with ky and zi, my two longest ever friends. I'm not sure if wolfie is counted but I'm not as close to her as to them so I doubt not. Anyway, we've known each other for like eleven years and thats a very very very long time for a friendship to last. When you put the three of us together, especially with kahyin, the chemistry is just an explosion of laughter. And I really mean explosion. Guys, if you think oifong and I are loud, wait till you meet crescentians HAHA.

Watched freedom writers after that and I really quite liked the movie. I had expected the typical, teacher reforms a class of delinquents kind. Very predictable, very wholesome. But I guess it hit me somewhere, just like coach carter.

Walked around taka and took so retarded photos after that. Oh yes, at one point we tried to take photos in the neoprint booth as we wanted to save money. However, the shop attendant came to check so ky began pretended to touch the screen and asking "hey so you guys want to use the machine or not?" I caught on and tried to carry out the act and was like "I don't know do you know how to use it? It seems difficult to use." And the attendant was like "Do you need any help?" So ky tried to chase her away by saying we were using the machine but the lady just gave us a puzzled look and walked off. HAHAH.

Matt is came over again. I thought their easter holidays are over but I suppose uk film schools are different? I don't think I would be able to sleep tonight with the blasting of music over from my bro's.

Picutres are up under goingout link still! The album was kinda empty so why waste space. HAHA.

This morning, I told my mum I felt like smoking and guess what she said? She told me to go buy those small packs with ten sticks or so. HAhah. WHich mum would say that! Honestly.

Shopped around club street and ann siang hill with my mum today. The rain was a real dampener so we pretty much did finish the errands and just flitted through the boutiques. Ended up back in orchard and had some jap food, plus I met wolfie too. So pretty haha. I told my mum I felt like smoking again, so she suggested going to arab street to try the shisha, so off we went right after the rain FINALLY stopped. Ordered me'ze which was like this platter of that flat bread thing and loads of dips which were mainly made of chickpeas, like hummus. There was olives and pickles too, but I found them awful. The apple shisha smelt really nice and I think I got drunk smoking it. My mum told the waiter to keep the change and you could see such a big cheeky grin on his face. I kind of understand now, about the time Farhan told me how he just sat around and smoke weed when he was back in pakistan. Honestly, I could just sit there the whole day smoking and drinking ice mint tea. Yummy. And no, I'm not addicted. >.<

Well, if you told me you were drowning
I would not lend a hand
Ive seen your face before my friend
But I dont know if you know who I am
Well, I was there and I saw what you did
I saw it with my own two eyes
So you can wipe off the grin, I know where youve been
Its all been a pack of lies

Well I remember, I remember dont worry
How could I ever forget, its the first time, the last time we ever met
But I know the reason why you keep your silence up, no you dont fool me
The hurt doesnt show; but the pain still grows
Its no stranger to you or me

Blading with shimin today! We were supposed to go marina but she was too lazy to go all the way there since she was at choa chu kang after sao mu, so she asked to go to j8 for lunch. Blading with her at Bishan Park was really fun, partly because she couldn't blade so I had to teach her. And hey, I'm not too bad a teacher okay! Haha. She said she is going to master blading in these three months, so when I get my blades we can go blading around the uni compound. Oh the crazy things we will do IF we do become roomies! Next up on our list, flying a kite we make ourselves:)))

Decided not to go catch the rapture at zouk today
1) it's raining really heavily
2)only steph is going with me
3)i don't like them that much it was more of a scouting out thing
So here's something to lighten my mood

Omg I really love fel's new car.
SEVTER DEAR I AM COMING TO LA TO VISIT YOU
I SWEAR

punklove says:
hahaha BUT you wld be the only guy
punklove says:
HAHAHAHHA
likkhian says:
eh nvm den
punklove says:
hahahahhaha
punklove says:
but youre a drag queen!
likkhian says:
i might break a fingernail
punklove says:
omg hahahahahahah
likkhian says:
or smear my makeup
punklove says:
this
punklove says:
is going on my blog
punklove says:
HAHAHAH
likkhian says:
NOOOO
punklove says:
WAHHAHAH
likkhian says:
i copyright this!

Pictures of the twin's adventures in haji lane and arab street are up under the same album link of goingout!Haha, okay that really sounded like one f the olsen twin's tapes. ANYWAY, I really want to try shisha. We saw this group of kids trying it and they looked so stoned. Like druggy/ drunk stoned. Not the listless sian kind. But the equipment or whatever you call it seems so cool, and the flavours really are quite attractive. I would really like to live the lifestyle of this man we saw at haji lane. I suppose he was one of the shopkeepers. All he does was tend to the shop, go out and have a smoke, and then cycle around on this toosmall bicycle and look at other shops. It seems so relaxing and carefree. Yet again, I could go mad with boredom.

Everyone was born to this world alone and life is tough. everyone knows that, make lemonade from the lemons it gives. But they also know that they can always have a core group of friends and family to rely on. That's what keeps tehm sane in this increasingly mad world, and stopping them from killing themselves. So with no strings attatched to me, what's stopping me from running that blade down my wrist?

Pain loneliness and isolation. Probably just typical teenage angst of a middle class teenager who just does not know how to appreciate things. But I guess, some people are just a little weaker than others.

Oh oh
Wee-ell-Now!

Relax don't do it
When you want to go to it
Relax don't do it
When you want to come
Relax don't do it
When you want to come
When you want to come

Relax don't do it
When you want to to go to it
Relax don't do it
When you want to come
Relax don't do it
When you want to suck to it
Relax don't do it
When you want to come
Come-oh oh oh

But shoot it in the right direction
Make making it your intention-ooh yeah
Live those dreams
Scheme those schemes
Got to hit me
Hit me
Hit me with those laser beams

I'm coming
I'm coming-yeah

Relax don't do it
When you want to go to it
Relax don't do it
When you want to come

Relax don't do it
When you want to suck to it
Relax don't do it (love)
When you want to come
When you want to come
When you want to come
Come-huh

Get it up
The scene of love
Oh feel it

Relax
Higher higher

Hey-
Pray

You get the frankie says relax jokes now?

Remind me to adjust alex's watch back by one hour so that she would be punctual. Waiting for her can be such a bitch at times. She was late when I was to meet her to accompany to highlight her hair at the scene, which I may add, had no visible difference at all after the session. We were late in meeting the people due to her free hair treatment and buying food, withdrawing money yadda yadda.

Blading was pretty fun as I got to meet up with alot of old classmates. Well, not exactly old. Kaisheng, liesel, aileen, lik and of course alex. The main entertainment was ks falling down. Hahah. And alex was so funny today! She called lowlights, downlights and went hysterical upon realizing her mistake. And when liesel and ks finally agreed to wait for us to use up our rental hours, she jumped for joy, literally, and well, lets say jumping in blades isnt the most stable thing when you land. I kind of miss the feeling of being all dirty, sweaty, grimy and smelly after a good game or sport.

No guesses, I was late for meeting my mum at vivo, but she was appease after whining abit. HAHAH. Auntie, now you knw why I can stand alex's whining. Arab street tmr with twin:)))

Note to self: Never steal candy from the fat kid

Party monster is a straight out whacked out movie. Macauly Caulkin and Wilber Valderama(I'm sorry if I misspelled the names) in candy coloured clothes, being gay partners were very weird. I mean, I was watching the home alone kid with the that 70's show geek! Macauly's acting was pretty bad, or it was just the way he spoke. How he tried to imitate a shakesperean speaking crazed vain egoistic bisexual drag murderer.Drag queens, bisexuality, shooting up coke, popping ecstacy were the main staples of the show and I suppose what actually was the life of the club kids. It was intriguing. Scarily freaky but immensely intriguing. Just like suicide. Just like murder.

new pictures are up:)))))
thank you auntie simeng

Hung out with the girls again! This time was with alex. Initially, we were supposed to meet at eleven, but I just couldn't for the love of god, get myself out of bed, so I told them to meet at twelve instead. And well, I was still late. Hahah.

We just shopped around vivo at the usual stores, f21, topshop, PULL AND BEAR and such. Omg, shopping with alex is like living in the stone age. After I had walked around the store like twice, she finally picked0 some clothes to try on. Unable to tolerate her immensely slow movements, oi and I went to pull and bear. And AFTER we walked around pull and bear once and I had tried on some jeans, did she FINALLY come over with her two purchases. Honestly, life with her is like walking backwards. Your life will go in rewind one day.

I bought a top from pull and bear again. Hahah yes twin, I really think I'm going crazy. And I think the zara gladiator sandals are really strangely nice! But the topshop crossover ones are even nicer. I need money money money.

Lunch at teh white dog cafe was alright, if only the waitress didn't mix up my order and delay the whole process, resulting in me having to eat a cold glazed salmon fillet. Of course, I could be the consumer bitch and demand compensation but seeing how panicked she was, I decided to be nice.

Dessert at marche with compliments from the prawn. Thanks alot dearie:)))).

xiaoan -- [noun]: A person who falls into an outhouse and dies 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

I finally met up with simeng and oi. Music and lyrics was a fun show, with hugh grant stammering and stuttering, batting his lashes incessantly as he jerked his hips singing about his heart going pop. Along with the corny 80's video and all the frankie says relax jokes (whose tshirt i'm dying to get), it was a very adorable show to watch in all.

I think I was the only one is the theatre laughing at the frankie says relax jokes. I suppose I'm the only idiot stuck in an age before she was born or something. I mean, who else knows about Frankie goes to Hollywood and the controversial song Relax, apprently about anal sex huh.

CONGRATULATIONS LIESEL ON GETTING ACCEPTED INTO NYU.
omg it's NYU for god's sake. Haha I'm so happy it's as if I had been accepted.

You know twin, about that quote you had? The one about the girl feeling scared because she thinks she treasures her friends more than they treasure her? I think it's so true. I'm not being neurotic or narcissitic or anything, but sometimes I feel that I'm so dispensible and disposable to everyone around me. And they say what are friends for? Really what are they for? And they say family is all that matters. But is there anything that really matters? We are all nothingness. So aren't relationships all nothingness?

I don't have a friend in the world. I don't have family. It's all just fleeting people who I've met and made certain connections with. Are those what they call friends and family? The people I can so called count on? I can't even name a single one then. It's not like I have been a hermit all my life, but I suppose I am a social hermit in this certain way.

My head hurts. More than ever.

You Are 75% Non Conformist

You are a pretty serious non conformist. You live a life hardly anyone understands. And while some may call you a freak, you're happy with who you are.

Are You a Nonconformist?

You Are More Cutthroat Than You Think

Yes, you do have that killer instinct lurking in you. And while you may not be actually cutting throats anytime soon... You certainly don't mind clawing your way to the top.

Are You Cutthroat?

You Are Running on 73% Adrenaline

Your Adrenaline Level: Borderline Dangerous You're running around so fast, you don't realize how quickly life is passing you by. While you may be getting a lot done, you're on the go lifestyle is probably wearing you out.

Are You Running on Adrenaline?

You Are a Pessimist

If things are going good, you can always imagine how they will turn for the worse. And when things do happen to be bad, life is like a dark pit you can't crawl out of. One bad moment can ruin your day, and you think one bad week can ruin your life. Things are much better than they seem. Just take time to see everything that's going right.

Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

Went to sign up at a job agency with daph and aud today. Before that, as daphy was going to be late, I decided to make a trip to the bank to open a new account. These errands really make me feel so adult. Like only adults search for jobs and go to banks as part of their daily routines, but when I think about it. I'm already nineteen which is very near twenty and this afterthought really scares the hell out of me.

Matt was over at our house when i got back so we hung out for a while as he waited for my bro to bathe and get changed. Ahh carefreee life of the unemployed.

Status: Officially unemployed

A really funny customer came today, I think he was french. While Tijah went to get stuff for him in the stock rom he asked me, "Didn't this section used to be half girls and half boys? Now it's all girls." So I replied" We just changed the display to all girls." To which he said rather ludicrously " Well that's not very fair. Is that all you have for boys? I feel offended. The girls are dominating the world!" HAhHahahah.

I'm going to miss these funny foreign customers and their hilarious dialogues when I stop work on monday. I'm going to miss the too-cute kids that even I a childhater would like. I'm going to miss all the eyecandy customers or passerbys. I'm going to miss snacking on chocolates and biscuits with serping and tijah. I'm going to miss ranking guys with serps and buying Macs for everyone using my expired student status. I am a little reluctant to leave as I'm going to leave such a nice and fun place behind. But I really need money and sales is getting a bit boring.

THE RAPTURE IS COMING
Omg. leo and liesel i love you guys
for going with me to see them((((((((:

Bless Revolver for running an article on HIM, even if it was just one pathetic page with an uber hot picture of ville in it. In the interview, Ville said that a new album will be coming out, very much unlike the poppish Dark Light one. Thank goodness. He said that "most people would probably hate it", but I have high hopes for it anyway!

I wish singapore had such music magazine, but I suppose it's really hard to run such a publications with such a dead music scene around. I mean, what bands are there to feature articles on? Most bands around are just imitations or copies of American bands. There seems to be no original sounds or anything. I'm sorry for being such a harsh critic when I myself am a music retard, but honestly. When electrico said they werre going to prove that local music doesn't suck, I was skeptical. After hearing a few songs, I rest my case.

Bought Nylon and Yen mag. I wanted to get Vogue UK as katem. was on the cover but it was just too damn expensive. Sigh. I need money. Seriously.

I feel so ugly and stupid

I need to lie down
before i start sinking again.

I've been waiting my whole life for you
and now you're just slipping away.

Someone please stop this great spending force known as xiaoan.

I spent 8 bucks on a Godiva drink which was absolutely delicious. But now I know why they named it Dark Chocolate Decadence. After the first 3/4 cup of rich chocolate ice taking you to heaven, you start feeling a little sick. Plus, I spent another 40 bucks on shoes at topshop. How am I ever going to save enough money t get my laptop:((((.

Zouk last night with steph, nic and his friend was pretty alright. The dj was waaaaay better, I mean he remixed some GnR and Blur songs which ups his cred ALOT for me. Most of the time was funk, which is much better than rnb in my opinion. Rnb is tolerable, but when the same songs are played in just different sequence, it gets fucking boring. Yesterday was an ugly day. I was ugly. Steph felt ugly. The crowd was ugly. Except one godcousin lookalike. Please note that lookalike means imitation, which in turn means a lower standard of the original.

Look at what alex emailed me:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIK AND KY!!!

The day just got curiouser and curiouser. I was on my way to work in the midmorning, just routinely daydreaming while having the spinto band or HIM blasting into my ears when my phone rang (well belted out vampire heart actually but anyway). My supervisor called me to check if I knew I had work today and I was like "huh yah i know I'm on my way". But it turns out my manager had changed my roster to full shift when I thought it was still at 12-6 shift. Imagine how late I was.

At work, while standing around, I went to consult Mr Guardian fortune cookie and he told me "Your destiny is changing, be careful of sexual appeal". Which means, hot and sexy guys and gals BEGONE! Hahah. But it's not like I'm some hunk or babe magnet, more likely I'm the psych ward escapee magnet.

Later in the afternnon, Lik dropped by for god knows what and my supervisor thought he was my boyfriend and let me off early! I was like HUH no he is my classmate, but she just kept chasing me away. Lik, you cost me thirteen bucks I tell you.

While having dinner at lido, serp and I were like looking at this guy who was like a 9.0! HAhah. Lucky day huh. But as we went to buy food, I noticed the group of girls he was with was like pointing and staring at us, so I asked serp if they were her friends, and well, no guesses here, they weren't. So she was like "huh, I stare at your boyfriend cuz he is goodlooking isn't that good". And with that I replied " Haha yah, if she was pretty we would be staring at her too." LOL.

I have decided to apply to FASS. Shenton way is really not my world and I would probably be stumbling and slipping off the corporate ladder half the time. So when I become a starving unemployed liberal arts grad, Lik please don't forget you said you would support me and give me a $5000 salary position in your law firm as an editor for your contracts.

Ms Azlin's wedding today! It was really cool as this is my like only second wedding I've been to, so I was quite excited. Haha. I really liked the setting they made which made them look like some malay royalty. Plus it was pretty great meeting all my classmates again. I shall put up the photos after I've managed to grab them off everyone else. Haha.

Went to starbucks at holland V with peiyi, huiling, eeli, daph, yuko and aud. It seems most are us are stuck in the same rut, to take fass or biz. Fass really seems like a dead end here in singapore. As my sis was telling me, in america they really value LA students, but in sg it's not really the case. For example, in the US thhey would rather pick an A LA student over a B business grad. But here, a B business grad would have a greater oppurtunity. This is really hurting my head.

eeli` Your dwelling places says:
i wish i was overseas. cos seriously i think sg is too small, and too rigid and materialistic for me actually
takeyourhandinmine says:
YAH thats why
eeli` Your dwelling places says:
let's go overseas! haha self-imposed exile

|k^Kh|An (liver) says:
if u wanna be rich, biz
l|k^Kh|An (liver) says:
if u wanna scrape out a living persuing the craft of your dreams
l|k^Kh|An (liver) says:
choose wadever it is in fass lor

Oh no, what should I do what should I do what should I do? I'm tired of living out of a cardboard box with a penance for a bank account, but Shenton way is just not my world. It's not that I'm an advocate for white superiority, but the cheesy phrase of America being the land of oppurtunity and dreams just seems so tangible all of a sudden.

What exactly may I ask, is the point and purpose of open houses? All aud and I did was walk around, grab some booklets to add to the weight of the door gift bags we were lugging around and eavesdropping on explanations to other eager people who seem to have a load of questions to bombard the facilitators with.

We soon gave up and was heading off to holland v for coffee, when we missed our busstop. So we ended up at starbucks near borders, loitered in kino then off home.

Such a hot and lazy day it is. Im contemplating whether I should apply for my university now. I really wanted fass but almost everyone is telling me how easy it is to get and that it really isn't worth getting into. Oh the confusion))):

It was all just reckless fun.

Hahah today was pretty boring at work. Had a more handsome version of nakata customer which kinda made our day heehee. Irene was telling me loewe is lv's second line and I didn't really believe because their stuff really doesnt look marc jacob-sy. So when I went back to ask my mum she was like "HUH NO. Loewe is a spanish brand and lv is french! Omg. But don't expose your manager or later she bully you." HAHHAHA

stole from kelly...

How Azn are You?

[x] Are you Asian in the first place?
[x] Were you born in an Asian country?
[x] Can you use chopsticks?
[x] Have you taken Vietnamese/Chinese/Korean/Japanese/LAO,etc at school as a kid?
[x] Can you speak an Asian language?
[ ] Is your favorite subject math/science? (was...'til I met calc and physics.)
[ ] Do you eat rice almost every single day/or alot?
[x] Did/Do you spike/highlight your hair?
[x] Do you get at least a 3.0 GPA?
Score: 7/9

Section 2:
[ ] Do you listen to Asian music?
[x] Have you watched Asian movies?
[ ] Can you rave?
[ ] Are you a master at DDR?
[ ] Do you drink pearl milk tea or bubble tea?
[ ] Can you play CS, Starcraft, Warcraft, Diablo, etc?
[ ] Have you played the violin/piano?
[ ] Do your parents beat you if you get bad grades?
[x] Are you going/taking/took any honors/AP classes?
[ ] Do you own a mazda/saturn?
[ ] Do you/your parents drive an Asian made car?
Score: 2/11

Section 3:
[ ] Are you or were you once a fob? (HUH?!)
[ ] Is your last name Park, Lee, Chang, Phanna, Wang, Wong, Kim, Tang, Chow, or Yu?
[x] Have you dated/[want] to date Asian boys/girls?
[ ] Have you designed a website before?
[ ] Does your SNS/e-mail have/had the words: AzN, gurl, boy, sweet, cute, hot, dragon, babe, angel, lil, princess, Xx...xX, oO..,Oo, etc?
[ ] Do you have both an Asian and an English name?
[x] Do you take off your shoes before entering someone's house?
[ ] Do you know the song "Got Rice"?
[x] anime?
[ ] Do you listen to trance?
Score: 3/10

Section 4:
[x] Have you eaten dim sum/dumplings before?
[ ] Are your parents fobs?(WTF IS A FOB)
[x] Is the mall your hang out place?
[ x] Do you think you're short?
[ x] do you have tons of cousins/siblings/uncles/aunts/etc?
[ ] Can you twirl a pencil between your fingers?
[ ] Have you ever solved a rubik's cube?
[x] Do you read manga?
[ ] Do you/your parents save ketchup packets/napkins/etc from restaurants for later use?
[x] Do you have ASiAN Pride?
Score: 6/10

Section 5:
[ ] Are you a very good artist?
[ ] Do you speak your Asian language with your friends?
[ ] Do your relatives own a restaurant/market/Nail salon in an Asian community?
[ ] Do you slurp soup?
[ ] Do YoU tYpE lIkE tHiS aLoT?
[x] Have you visited your home country at least twice? (<3) [ ] does your house smell like incense once in a while? [x] Do you have/had glasses or braces? [x] Do you like to read? [ x] Do you NOT have an allowance?
Score: 4/10

total:22/50===> 44% what... how can i be less asian than kelly who is an american?!?!

Serping and I should stop going to pulland bear
or we will buy their whole shop soon.

ADDICTED TO YOU.

Hung out with huey and ox yesterday which was really great. I hadn't seen them for ages. Ben & jerry's was a big delicious ripoff, pet safari is like a pet zoo with depressed puppies and superdog should seriously change their name to spacedogs as it sounds cuter.

Zouk at night with steph alex darren and his friends. I was in an uber bored mood so I didn't really feel the hype. Alex only got high after she took a drag from a cig which was really funny because she really started getting a little crazy. I had to sort of babysit her but at least she was huggable! haha I think i became crook for the night. There were alot of weird guys yesterday, ither that or it was just that section of the dance floor. Over at zouk, things were more happening. A fat white man in gold tights was dj-ing and dancing with this really hot girl. Unfortunately they were playing trance which gets really monotonous so we went back to phuture after awhile.

Oh yes and the really amusing thing was that we met that senior student councillor nigel's twin! He like came over to dance with us but I really didnt see his face cuz alex was clinging on to me, so when the music and everything stopped I was like "hey this guy looks like nigel" steph.
steph:yah yah i think so too
alex:huh
me:don't you think he looks like nigel
alex: OMG HE LOOKS LIKE NIGEL IS HE NIGEL?!?!?
the guy:omg you guys are from vj?nigel is my brother.
Got a ride from him home not long after. I suppose things were alittle better because Mr C wasnt there>.<

HAHAHAHAH. pictures added to nightout3.no night pictures though, i left my cam in my bag which was in the baggage counter

I'm not sure to be happy or sad. I'm contented with my results but not exactly estatic about it. Oh well, it's just that in a school oand class where most people are getting 3 or 4 As, getting just one makes me feel so stupid and pathetic. I guess I'm just a little sore about GP but then again, I've always known myself to be more of the creative writer than a journalist type, so it's not my fault it's just the bloody system. HAHAH.

:) ? :( ? =====> :|


p.s. more pictures up in nightout3 album

OH MY FUCKING GOD
IT'S TMR
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

alright pictures from vday and some other day are up under nightout3. it's only 7 pathetic photos actually, i'm only putting this up so auntie an go grab them and update her friendster HAHAH.

WHY did mtv have to start playing keep you hands off my girl by gc? I just weaned my brain off that retarded addictive song a few months ago! Let the record play...

stephaaaniiiieeee how can you do this to meee
mr c is scaaaaariiinnnggg meeee

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

You Are a Lemon Cake

Strong, sexy, and overpowering. You know who you are, and you're not afraid to show the world your fabulous self. You're confident, charming, and extremely popular.

What Kind of Cake Are You?

How wrong blogthings can be...

I am seriously scared for this friday. My heart palpitates wildly just thinking of that impending doomsday. Each reminder of it sends cramps in my stomach, I swear it does.

Zouk last night was kind of boring. Honestly, leo's and my trip to the place was ten times more eventful and interesting. Plus, it would have been much more fun if Mr C wasn't there. Haha you know who I'm talking about, steph! Slept two hours and went to work. My feet almost died I tell you.

Hitched a ride from Farhan to visit Sir just now. It's good to have friends who have their licenses already and with a cool car with gadgets to boot(even if it is his dad's). Sir was really really trying to persuade us to join back but I just kept saying "Sorry I lost my interest." He even gave us 12 bucks angpow! Haha, plus we've got the nicer ones which Farhan says is for "friends & family only". I feel pretty bad not going back but I really don't like the 'ch 8' culture now.

Sometimes blogthings scare me.

Travel Horoscope for Virgo

When you travel, you need to keep active and on the go. You want a vacation where you can keep moving and keep things exciting. You should travel to: Paris Tokyo NYC Sydney London

What's Your Travel Horoscope?

You Communicate With Your Ears

You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker. What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions. You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself. Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.

How Do You Communicate?

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills. Idealistic and dreamy, you tend toward the impractical. You have a knack for getting yourself in sticky situations. Brainy and intelligent, you are intellectual to the point of being incomprehensible. Your emotions tend to be relaxed and uncomplicated. You don't read too much into things.

What Do Your Hands Say About You?

Xiao an is the silliest most stupid girl in the world.
I cant believe i did that,
I really can't can't can't.

I saw a vivienne westwood wallet and bag today and went crazy.
The betsy johnson bag was really funky too.
I wish I had money.

I bought fake vivienne westwood earrings today! haha they are like everywhere. I bet noone knows its vivenne westwood, just like people in erm, timbutu knows chanel. Oh well, good for me i suppose. I finally bought workshoes too, hooray. Cheap and ugly black things they sure are.

You Are Navy Blue

You're a true adventurer. You constantly find yourself drawn to new experiences, people, and places. Sometimes you feel quite scattered and bored. If something exciting isn't going on, you feel a bit lost.

What Color Blue Are You?

Dark Purple

To others, you seem a bit dark, mysterious, and moody. In truth, you are just a very unique person who doesn't care what others think. And you really enjoy your offbeat interests and friends. You've decided that life is about living for yourself - simple as that.

What Color Purple Are You?

Just went to the balcony with huili and simeng. I wanted to leave the house earlier so I could miss my halfsiblings but sigh, didnt manage to do so. I don't know why but I feel like a stranger when I am among them. Thank you girls so much for going out with me or you would see my name in the orbituary. Person died of ennui.

the drag queen is so funny

Leonard* help the wall is falling! says:
u know ken?
l|k^Kh|An (hand) SILENCE! my dum dum want to speak... says:
ryu's brother issit
playground superstar says:
ken who
playground superstar says:
HAHAHAH
Leonard* help the wall is falling! says:
the thrower la!!!
playground superstar says:
omg
l|k^Kh|An (hand) SILENCE! my dum dum want to speak... says:
dun really noe... why lei/

playground superstar says:
ken is sucha weird name to have
l|k^Kh|An (hand) SILENCE! my dum dum want to speak... says:
ohhh
l|k^Kh|An (hand) SILENCE! my dum dum want to speak... says:
i think its a nice name.. sounds ver positive
l|k^Kh|An (hand) SILENCE! my dum dum want to speak... says:
can anot ken?
l|k^Kh|An (hand) SILENCE! my dum dum want to speak... says:
can!
playground superstar says:
hahaha but if you add it to a chi surname it is weird
playground superstar says:
ken tan
playground superstar says:
ken teo
l|k^Kh|An (hand) SILENCE! my dum dum want to speak... says:
Ken Not
l|k^Kh|An (hand) SILENCE! my dum dum want to speak... says:
Ken Do
l|k^Kh|An (hand) SILENCE! my dum dum want to speak... says:
Ken Tan Ese
playground superstar says:
ken you go on sat
l|k^Kh|An (hand) SILENCE! my dum dum want to speak... says:
Soh Yew Ting Yew Ken
l|k^Kh|An (hand) SILENCE! my dum dum want to speak... says:
dance?

HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Boring people know boring people.
Boring people stay at home and
do boring stuff.
Boring people eat boring food liek cereal
boring people die of ennui
as they lead such an immensely boring life.

This year, my family has broken their record. Officially, my cny has ended in 5 minutes. It is all a very contrived affair where people who just happened to be blood related to me come over due to traditional formalities.

This morning I woke up, on my own, at the ungodly hour of 645 a.m. Can you believe it? I was bursting with energy and just had to find a way to get rid of it, so I went to run. That was some steamboat we had yesterday.

When the Pawn Hits the Conflicts He Thinks like a King What He Knows Throws the Blows When He Goes to the Fight and He'll Win the Whole Thing Fore He Enters the Ring There's No Body to Batter When Your Mind Is Your Might So When You Go Solo. You Hold Your Own Hand and Remember That Depth Is the Greatest of Heights and If You Know Where You Stand. Then You'll Know Where to Land and If You Fall It Won't Matter, Cuz You Know That You're Right.

Sometimes I feel so bored I don't mind killing myself.
Seriously.
It's one of the greatest way to pass the time
when there's no one to hang out with.
Day or night.

I cast the line but the bait was not taken:((((.

I'm so sorry.

Met up with huili in the evening and we went to visit shimin at her workplace. We snuck off to buy dinner and some flowers for her. Fake tulips, which were pretty damn nice mind you! She was pretty touched when we reappeared, at least she said she was. Walked around heeren after shimin got off work as we were waiting for steph and lik to join us. They were taking such a looooonnngg time we went to the balcony first. The ambience was pretty great and we ordered quite a few cocktails. When steph and lik finally graced us with their ohsogreat prescence, huili and sm had to leave. Talked a bit more. Managed to catch the last train back. I really wanted to take the bus but lik forced me to take the train as he was afraid he would get groped and raped. HAHA. That's the drag queen for you.

It's so scary how we're growing up so fast. I really get why tiff was so frustrated the other day. Life is such a bore now. Everyone won't or can't go out because of work or driving. Before, it was parents. Sigh. We're bloody 18, 19 even! Why are we talking about work as if it is our careers! And even though we have joined the working force, the parents still tug their little strings around them, reeling them back under the safety of their arms. I have a peter pan syndrome. I know. And it's bloody irritating.

Oh it's a lonely valentine's! Should I pluck up the courage to cast the line or not? The bait is all ready writhing on the hook of my rod. GAH.

Went to the Jack Neo movie premiere yesterday. I guess the only reason I went was because it was free, even though it was a local movie. The show was pretty boring and corny. Watching serp craze of her idol was even more amusing.

The rest of the photos in taiwan have been added to the album! Yay.

It's so hard to find someone in this big sea.
I have the fishing rod in my hand but am afraid to cast the line.

Did some mantou delivery in the morning to my workplace and then headed to suntec to join huili, shimin and their dunman gang. The talk wasn't very informative, but it did instill some panic in me. The results are coming out soon plus I dont know what major to take! I'm not even sure if I can go uni. And what's worse is the preconceived notion most people have of me, since I'm in vj I surely can get my A's easily. BIG MISTAKE.

They ate kfc for lunch and we met up with lik back at the convention centre. It was like some big reunion as I saw some sec sch and pri school friends which was pretty amazing. Huili ditched her friends for ben and jerry's with lik and I. 3 scoops was like 12 bucks which is daylight robbery. It wasn't even that nice,well thanks to lik who chose the most absurd flavours. I bet he was busy checking out the b&j scoop girl in her super short shorts. Lik was unsatisfied with the icecream so we went to take ore spoons from them and bought a tub of some cheap icecream in carrefour and ate in the skylight gardens until we felt absolutely sick. Walked around for a while until huili had to leave for her yoga lesson.

Lik adn I were pretty bored so we decided to go stalk aileen at subway. Lik went to order a sandwich and was like trying to order with his back facing her until we got to her. The surprise on her face was so hilarious. He asked her to put all the veggies and all the sauces. It was so filled that she couldn't close it! HAHA. While he ate dinner, we made a prank call to andy with lik faking a helium-inhaled voice to pose as my drag queen friend. But andy guessed it was him and the reason? "Only lik khian would do such gay things." LOL. Hung out at bishan library for awile until it closed, bade goodbye to aileen and went home.

I'M STILL WAITING.

The wait is excruciating

Photos are up on the sidebar under taiwan! incomplete album though.

"Casual encounters may very well end up as profound friendships. These relationships will prove most interesting to you since, apart from their sentimental aspect, a common intellectual research will give your exchanges a non-conventional character that will delight you. Remember that 'friendship doubles joys and reduces sorrows by half' (Francis Bacon). "
Let's hope this is true.
Still waiting.

Hellooo I'm back from my nine day stint in taiwan:)))). The first day was mainly travelling. 4 hour plane ride followed by a 4 hour bus ride to tainan. Stayed at my godmother's house. Tainan's food was mainly sweet with lots of starchy sauce and the weather was deliciously cold. Did some temple visiting and quite a bit of shopping in mitsukoshi and their enormous carrefour.

3 days later, off to taipei. Stayed at my other godmother's house. The main activities i remembered us doing was eating. and eating. and eating. Went all the way up to taipei 101, the tallest building in the world to catch the sunset, travelling by the world's fastest elevator. It scaled 89 floors in 33 seconds! It was pretty pricey though. Ximending and wufenpu were pretty horrid. It was very much like an open air far east plaza...make that city plaza.

Dinner at a restaurant in new york new york was pretty great as I got to meet up with my childhood friend. Hehheh. We didn't talk much as I felt pretty awkward after not seeing him for so long but oh well. :)).

Photos will be up soon, once I get the charger thingy out of the suitcase. and there would be more to come when my aunt figures out how to upload the pics from her cam.

Watched house at fel's.
Serps treated zi and I to pepper lunch.

And tomoorow I'm off to taiwan!
so exciting

I have officially joined the ranks of the unemployed.

And i wish my mum would stop being so psycho.

I'd like to say, for the record, that the world finally has hope.
Yesterday, two goodlooking, tall LOCAL guys entered our shop. Can you believe it? ME! Finding cute local guys. Unfortunately, they look too coiffed, that even calling them metrosexuals are an understatement. Sad to say, we declared them to be gay. As the saying goes, "all goodlooking guys are either married or gay." There was another cute local guy but he was short.

When I went out to do something I have no recollection of, I saw this other cute asian guy.
Ate a fortune cookie and guess what it said "Today is the day you will have the oppurtunity to be fated with the ones you want to meet."

Nikki! Sorry for not talking to you too much when you can over. I was really sleepy.>.<

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. With respect to money, you spend whatever you have. You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others. The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you. You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's The True You?

This is so true.
Fuck.
My mum has gone bonkers.
Get a grip.

Despite my resolve to diet,
I ended up aving steeamboat
with irene(my manager), her husband, tijah and serp.
I learnt that
watermelons do not grow on trees,
serp actually thought you could cook hair
and there is such a food as fish glue.

I played waith somekids today
and I think it's because they were cute
so I actually bothered with them.
Oh what materialism that lays within me!

I would dearly like to go for a breast reduction and liposuction.
I wish I was anorexic
and I'm not just saying it.
I want so much to get off this island
because it is boring and
chivalry is dead here.

Please give me a gun
I would like to shoot
the guy who let me hold the door for him and his gf
and didn't even say thank you,
the fucking annoying lee hwa roadshow salespeople
and the people who keep touting donations along the corridors of forum.

I am starting to believe in the
"if you're pretty you're pretty" philosophy.
So I should stop buying clothes
as no matter how I dress up in pretty clothes
I'll always remain visually mortifying
and perpectually corpulent.

browncow, snowball
gin fizz, chocolate dream
garlic bread
was what xin and i had at crazy elephant just now.
We went there in hopes of a live band
but all we had were music blasting over the stereos.
Country, blues,
they were all in good taste at least.

I'm working right till 31st december. I feel really reluctant to do so, yet I covet the extra money I would get. Sigh. I'm really in two minds about asking to end early or not.

Two days off is turning me into a cinemaholic bum.
And this life is just great.

I'm so tired. The new stock came in yesterday so we had to rearrange and unpack everything, while business was still on. I reached home at 1a.m last night and my eyes can hardly open now. The new cruise collection isn't very nice, all the pastel matronly colours. Ah well, prl was never my favourite brand anyway. I'm soooo looking forward to the kate moss collection at topshop! (haha sorry for the bimbo moment. lack of sleep befuddles the brain).

What would katy do

Sev's parents were at hilton's LV today so she came by to visit me. And for her treat of hilton's cheesecake i give her this:

THANKS A WHOLE LOT SEV. YOU ROCK BIG TIME.
PEOPLE, PLEASE MAKE FRIENDS WITH HER
AND YOU'LL NEVER GO HUNGRY.

Everyone at work kept saying I'm growing fatter:(((. That is so depressing. And then, they keep feeding me and serp. Haha. If only I had serp's metabolic rate.

I can just read UK's Vogue forever.

Watched dvds at xiangning's house today.
it was pleasant just loafing around
chatting
eating the orange cake her mum made.
I wish everyday was like this.

After work, Serp and I went to Far East to grab a bite. All of us have definetly fallen under the Tijah curse, I'm growing so fat now! At first I was too tired to join's fel's bbq but since I was out already I decided to go crash it.

I made two new friends today! Joleen and Adela! Well not exactly new considering they were from crescent too, but I never spoke to them before so it's not counted. Haha. The bbq was a rather small group but fun anyway! We had steak, green tea fish(adela's concoction), prawns, bagette and marsmellow. I'm so damn stuffed now, my stomach hurts. Played at her gym abit and then we invited ourselves to her house tomorrow. Haha.

Incoherent entry, I know. Fat does that to you. Clogs your brain.

Met up with fel and aud today.
Sat at royal copenhagen tea lounge
had a cappucino and shared a sour cherry almond cake with fel.
The food aint that great over there.
I suppose people just go for the tableware.

Cafe hopped over to crossroad's.
Aud and I were overwhelmed by the exorbitant prices
fel ordered a mushroom ravioli.
It was the first time I saw yello and black striped pasta.
Egged fel to buy the cakes at the Marriot.
Honestly, she is such a sucker for hotel cakes.

Went home early.
My feet hurt.

Hung out with lynne after work yesterday. I got to change in the fitting room:))))))). We wanted to go to the balcongy but nik said it was ex, and when nik says it's ex, I believe it really is. Haha. Ate at billy bombers instead and took neoprints. And since I was with lynne, of course, there was loads of cam whoring.

Links are on the sidebar under nightout2.

After like 2 hours of deliberation, Dawn finally decided that she wanted to go clubbing so lynne and I went down to harborfront mrt to wait for her. But she didnt have enough money for the cabfare so we had to go to the busstop to meet her to pay for her cabfare. Hoho. We were all first timers at st james so we had to go around the place in circles finding the right room. I felt so loser as we kept having to peek in and then leave again as it was the wrong room. It was as if we were being chased out or something.

When we got to the powerstation, we had such a difficult time trying to get change for the locker. Too lazy to put makeup and we decided it was too dark anyway. Squeezing onto the dancefloor was rather difficult but when we did, Dawn and I felt too sober to dance so after a while we went to get our free drinks. Heh heh. The place is seriously understaffed and the bartender took such a long time it totally pissed Dawn off. SO she just took my coupons and ordered 10 tequila shots at one go. I almost balked at the sight of the 5 shot glasses staring at me with the glass of orange slices for taste relief. After downing what was the most alcohol I have ever taken in such a short period of time, I couldn't stand properly. Haha. While waiting for our drinks, there was this middle aged guy who started wiggling to the music and I presum that he was dancing. Totally reminded me of william hung. We just couldnt stop laughing when ever we looked at him.

Went back to the dancefloor and we were finally high enough to dance. But the songs were a bit boring and reppetitive and the crowd were all office people so it was quite boring too. Some guy tried to come and dance with us but dawn and i cut him off. While we were dancing halfway, some girl and guy pulled me up on the platform to dance with them. Being a super noob I totally panicked and was like oh goodness what the fuck?!? Then I kept looking down at lynne and dawn who were alos bewildered and I ended up causing them to get pulled up too. Apparently the gilr realized she knew lynne, but lynne was completely clueless. Joyce(the girl who pulled me up) began dancing with me and I felt so violated, but not wanting to look like a dork I danced back. Haha. Poor lynne got stuck dancing with her guy friend(who we think is not actually her friend) and was touched all over. Managed to escape soon.

Went toilet, then back on the dancefloor for awhile. When we got a little tired already we headed to the bar for lynne to use up her coupons. Dawn saw her bf so she went to look for him and we two sat there for a rest. One guy came up to me and I really couldnt hear what gibberish he was speaking so I tried to ignore him but he kept tapping my shoulder and trying to speak to me. Finally I managed to decipher the words which was in chinese, asking to be friends. I just said no and he kept talking so I just shook my head and was like no no then he finally walked away. Lynne said he was eyeing us for a long time already and was from the same group as the guy who tried to cut into our group earlier on. Pfff. And I thought having no makeup would enable us to evade all that.

There were loads of guys who danced really weirdly. Like the william hung guy and one one the table who totally was just flaying his limbs around. There were a few guys who were so faggoty that they dirtydanced with each other. And my cute guy was also dancing like a dork:(. I think I'm so dead lah. All the guys I thought were cute were white. Sigh.

After seperating from Dawn we had quite some trouble looking for her. Her bf and her had some prob so they went outside, but when all the lights on she came back in. My ears were ringing really badly. Her bf sent lynne and I to my house and we slept till 10+ when I had to go to work. Redbull does wonders. I was totally awake at work. Haha.

You'll never guess what song I'm into now.
I'll make a man out of you by Shan from mulan.
HAHA

I helped a customer hold her kid today. And I don't know what was wrong with me, but I felt really disgusted or something with that writhing creature wailing in my arms. I could still feel the shudders after I handed the child back.
On the other hand, I got to see quite a lot of eyecandies. Especially that huge group who went up the escalator.
On my phantom hand, I'm becoming sooooo uber fat now. I think I'm back to 55kg again)))))))))))):. The most depressing thought ever.

F.U.C.K.
Thou shalt not bail out-eth on people should be made the eleventh commandment.
I swear, I am never going to initiate meetups with my vj classmates ever again. I keep getting bailed out on and I feel like a big fucking loser that has to follow everyone else's lead. I could've worked on nye and two more hours today, but nooooo, I told Irene I had something on. Imagine the extra money I could have made. From now on, money first. I am just going to be a crazed workaholic for the rest of my life with a social life more silent than a graveyard. Xiaoan will be the next Ebenizer Scrooge. Watch out!

WHEEEEE. My mum bought two pairs of shoes for me! A gold-beige ballet pumps and leopard print peeptoe flats. From none other than pull and bear!

The grey ones are indeed a size too small for me. Anyone wants to buy them? They're size 38. Please tag my board and take up the offer!! Haha. And dont worry I've only worn them to try out the size. I'm thinking of selling them at 30 bucks?(Do you like them, twin?)

My feet hurt so much from standing all day, though I shouldnt be one to complain as I work much lesser hours than my twin. I wish that darn blister will hurry up and heal, it's dead worrying that an infection could fester. Disgusting! Work is starting to get dreary now and I keep daydreaming. Haha. But at least everyone is so friendly and funny so I dnt get too bored.

Lalala. My mum got picked up by a guy yesterday while waiting for me and I found out she used to help her journalist friend model for Her World magazine. Sometimes I wonder if we're really related.

Work was filled with gorging and stoning.
Shopped after worked and bought grey ballet pumps at pull and bear, along with some tank tops:).
Ate icecream while waiting for the rain to subside.
I can feel my fats accumulating once again:(((((.

A customer said I have good attitude today. Yay. I'm such a sucker for compliments. Plus, my mum just invited me to go taiwan with her in feb with her friends, and I asked audrey and zi along. I hope one of them can go. If not, i'd be dreadfully bored among a bunch of adults chattering in intricate chinese conversations in which I can only catch a smattering bit of. Ah well, at least I get to travel and see my maternal relatives, eat chicken( honestly, they have really great chicken!) and maybe catch sight of a balding jay chou eh? HAHA.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
have a smashing good year ahead!